Sunday, July 3, 2011

10 Days of Bullshit Challenge--Day 3

Day 03- An experience you're not proud of, but has made you the person you are today. 

 An experience that I am not proud of would be marrying my ex husband. Although I would never say I regretted being with him because he is part of the reason I have my two children, but I do regret marrying him. The reason I married him in the first place was because at the time my health insurance was expiring(medicaid) and I was going to be without health insurance. So I figured since we already had two children and I was so "in love" with him getting married would be a good idea. Wrong answer!

Our relationship hadn't been the best prior to getting married. We fought all the time, he went out and drank most of the night away and would come home drunk, leaving me to take care of two children along with trying to manage school. The cheating had also started before we got married, but we had gotten to the point where we forgave each other and moved on. (no I was not perfect)

After getting married, things were really good for the first month. The fighting had stopped, he had cut back on his drinking, and things were going quite well. To be honest, I expected it to honestly work. Two months into the marriage, he quit caring. Needless to say a lot of things happened and we split up and got back together about two or three times. Finally in February of 2010, I left for good. I was tired of it all, my self esteem was shot and I had lost my best friend. (She had been sleeping with him for a couple of months)

No, I dont need the feel sorry pity party bullshit. I can say that I am happier now. I am a better person now and I have learned from the mistakes I made in my relationship with him to make things better in my relationships now. My trust issues suck yes, but thanks to the wonderful man in my life now, I have gotten some of them back...

And a happier note, I love my two children to PIECES and would never say I ever regret being with their father because they wouldn't be here without him.


  1. Moral of the story NEVER EVER marry for medical coverage! ;)

    Good job for making the right choice and leaving. Most don't have the balls to do that even after being cheated on!! *cheers* bitch!

  2. you need the button or insert my link :)sorry so fucking complicated hookerrr